So, on thursday (2/5/09) while kickin it on campus, I received a text from an old lady friend, actually probably the first person I'd met when I moved to this town of bluffton, and I was kinda happy to hear from her since, i think, graduation. We got caught up on some things, like she didn't know I was still residing in bluffton and vice versa. She made the request that we, me & her, should get up some time so I'm like "cool".
Well that day came and it was on that next day, Friday (2/6/09). She suggested that we should grab a bite to eat around 5pm and I was up for it, but plans got canceled, yet later that night, she paid me a visit. Everything was cool, the vibe was cool, we was just kicking it, talking and whatnot and that was it. She left around 11 and about 5mins after she left my house I get a text from her saying "Damn, I think you sparked up that crush again that I had for you back in the day, lol"... Really?? so I replied back saying "yea i felt the vibe between us"... i really didn't kno what else to say because I wasn't expecting a statement like that after just one night...
So yesterday, Saturday (2/7/09), she hits me up again, say that we should catch a movie... "Fine with me", I said. We went to go see "Taken" around 9:10pm... The movie was actually kinda good, a lot of action, a lot chops/punches in to the neck which made me chuckle, but it was kinda short too. We left like around 10:45pm. Being that my car was parked closer to the theater and hers' was parked all the way by Outback, instead of walking her to her car, I drove her (I know, I'm such a gentleman). We hugged and then we made our departure. As I'm driving down bluffton parkway, I get a text from her asking
"Would it have been unladylike if I had kissed you?"
I really didnt know the answer to that question because i dont know the symptoms of being unladylike. I thought it just was when female burped or farted in public or something like that, lol. While I was still tryna figure what to say, she sends me another text saying...
"I'm sorry, I'm just feeling you alot more than you're feeling me..."
this is true. now don't get me wrong, there's nothing really wrong with this girl, and I love the company of females, but I just ain't the type that fall quick because when I do fall, I fall hard. I'm real slow with developing feelings, in fact, it's kinda of a long process for me to even feel anything about someone. but is that a problem?? is it Me?? I'm I being too guarded or is she being too fast?? I ask because this isn't the first this done happened, where I would hangout with a lady a couple times and she would feel something for me, but soon she would be upset when she finds out that I don't feel the same way. Shit... I ain't gone lie to'em. I've been told that I have a cold heart because of this, but I'm a strong beleiver that you like someone as a friend, but you can't just "make" yourself fall "in like" with someone, no matter how nice they are. If you diggin'em, then you're diggin'em and if you aint, then you aint, right?
2 comments:
Damn this seems like a tough situation. But the bottomline is to never rush into a relationship. And if they're feelin you more than you're feelin them don't feel bad if there feelings get hurt or be persuaded if they try and put a guilt trip on you. Now i may not be the best person to give advice, but that's just how i feel on the situation. Don't Rush (seems like a good poem topic)
Being honest with her is the best route to go as of now. Look at this way though, the more you spend time with her perhaps your feelings may get stronger?
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